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Addicted To Hate I Take More Everyday..The Smile On Your Face Fades..And Horror Takes Its Place..

Sunday, 10 May 2009

Between Love..Need..Effort..And Seek..

I'm Happy...In The Same Time I'm Sad..Why?I Just Can't Say It..Well..It's Just That I Don't Know How To Say It In A Way That Most People Would Understand It And Respect It....So Much Of A Happiness When At The Same Time You Get Sadness Full Of Sorrow..Why Is That?I Really Don't Know..

I Would Love To Be With Someone At The Moment..Someone Who Would Care And Love Me..Looks Like That Moment Got To Be Postpone For An Unknown Total Of Time..For The Moment..I'll Live With Love Of My Family And My Mom..This Year..I Choose To Wish It To My Mom A Minutes Before Mother's Day Due...Just To Make A New Way And Things..Not The Same Old Things Every Year..Life Should Be Full Of New Things For Us Everyday..Not Some Same Old Boring Stuff..Love You Mom..

Of Course..By The Heart And Desire Of Mortal Human..The Need To Be Love And Give Love Is In All Of Us..It's A Lie And A Denial To Human Need If They Don't Want "Love"... Everyone Need It...So Am I..But Whom I Want To Be With?None Want To Be With Me Even Worst Does't Want Me To Be With Them..How Cruel This Life Can Be Sometimes Right? The More You Seek The More You'll Get..Right?Well.Not For Me I Guess..The More I Seek The Harder Things That I Seek Of To Come..Belive It Or Not..Put Some Extra Effort On What You'll Do And The More Results You'll Get..That's For Sure..Again It's Not For Me I Guess..The More Effort I Put On Something..The Further It Will Go Off Beyond My Grasp..

Ya Allah..Guide Me..Show Me The Way..Guide Me The Way You Want Me To Follow In....
~Amin~


Saturday, 9 May 2009

In Your Dream With You..

"What Has Been Put Asunder Shall Again Be Whole"

In This Neon Black Gloom I Still See Her Face..
She Comes To Me Bringing Darkest Hour, I Am Forlorn..
The Pain Is Reborn..So Does The Happiness..

You Will Forever In My Heart You Will Never Died..
You Will Forever I Still Wonder Where You Are...

I Know You're Dreaming, I Know You're At Peace..
I'll Meet You In The Dreamtime..
Whenever You Call Me I'll Go Under, I'll Swim Through You..

You Are Forever In My Heart You Never Died..
You Are Forever I Still Wonder Where You Are..
I Know You're Dreaming Neon Black..

"As The Curtain Calls, And The Cast Recedes,
I Am All That Ever Was And All That Ever Will Be...
In Wither And Repose This Frayed Chapter
Now Does Close, And Fade Into Neon Black"

Falling Into You...Truly..

When You Realize That "Something" You Really Care About..Love Of..You Won't Stop Trying Something To Take It Within Your Hands...Seal It With Your Heart..Keep It Safe And Put A Rememberance In Your Memory Forever..It Would Be Nice If It's Happening That Way..The Way Of Any Mortal Want It To Be..Sometimes...It Doesn't As What We Hope For..Hence, Things Keep On Being Not In Our Favour...

I Was Once..Been In That Kind Of Situation..Not Once..Not Twice..It's Uncountable Now For Me..Truly Don't Know Why..But It's The Way That I've To Get Through In My Life..Again And Again Things Aren't In The Way That I Want It To Be..And Again..I've To Let Go That "Something" For An Unknown Number Of Times..

Today Mark Another Same Situation For Me..Finally I Can Get Through Of That "Something" And Feel Free Again..That Freedom Doesn't Stand For Long Because I've Found "Something" That Really Open My Eyes..This "Something" Make Me Realize How Gracious And Justify Allah Is..You Loose On Something Good By His Will..He Will Give You Another That's Even Better Then The Other One..Alhamdulillah..I Got It..

In Short Term..I Can Take A Huge Smile..Planning Something With This "Something".. Look Ahead On Day By Day Terms..In Long Term Period..I'm Still In A Little Phobia..Of What Has Happen Recently..I Would Love That Lightning Didn't Strike Twice In The Same Place..All I Can Do Now Is To Pray That Hopefully..I Will Find The True Meaning Of Life With This "Something"..Forever..Because I'm Tired Of Seeking..Waiting...And Beeing Hurt On And On And On..Ya Allah..If This "Something" Really Meant A Good Will Of You Oh Most Gracious And Generous..Please Help Me Find This "Something" Trueself..Let It Be Mine For Eternity..Help Me Ease This Pain..By Send This "Something" Love To Me...Amin Ya Rabbal Al Amin..

Thursday, 7 May 2009

For Some There Are No Choices...

No More Will To Live, I See The World Fade..
No More Hope Inside, My Life Means Nothing Anyway..
Just Shades Of Gray, I Slip Away Again..

Feed Me From The Heart Of Your Denial..
The Velvet Sleep Is Conviction Only Fools Know..
Dry Your Own Eyes, I Can't Sympathize..
Plague Your Own Dreams, I Won't Be Following..

Free Me From This Sphere Of Confusion..
These Tears Of Dust Are The Tears From One Who Knows Why..
Fly Beyond The Dreaming, Fly Beyond Our Being..
Turn And Face The Mirror, The Answers Come, Clear As Glass..

I Still Feel You Now, You Are The Falling Rain..
The Voice That Stills The Pain, I Am The Lover Gone Insane..
I Must Be Strong, For Love Burns Ever Long..

Mari Main Tag..Jaga2 Ya Mangsa Tag..

My Top 10 Most Favorite Foods
1. Rice+Anything...
2. Double Cheese Burger...
3. Burger King
4. Tail Soup...
5. Nan Cheese+Tandoori...
6. Chineese Fried Rice...
7. Satay...
8. Dunkin Donut..
9. Apple..
10. Guava..

10 Things I Love Doing
1. Driving+Riding..
2. Playing The Guitar..
3. Jamming
4. Songs..Hearing+Singing..
5. Computer+Playstation Games
6. Internet+Blogging+Connecting People+Downloading...
7. Football+Futsal..Wathing+Playing..
8. Take Some Alone Time Anywhere Where There's No People Around..
9. Friends+HangingOut+Limited Social Life+Pranks...
10. Watching+Searching+Knowing Cars And Motorcycle Race...

5 Things I Love Doing When I'm EMO
1. Al Quran Al Karim..Making Poems..
2. Boxing Glove+Punch Bag=Any Questions?
3. Movie..Actions+Comedy+Life...
4. HangOut With Friends...
5. Last Solution=Seek And Destroy...

5 Things I Love Doing When I'm Happy
1. Martial Art..
2. Guitar+Songs+Studio=Pure Metal And Headbanging...
3. Making Poems..
4. Suddenly Become Hardworking Prick..
5. Making Lyrics And Songs...

5 Things I Wish To Happen
1. Having A Great Career..
2. Release An Album..
3. Watching Metallica+Megadeth+Nevermore Perform..
4. Someone I Love..Also Love Me..
5. At Stamford Bridge Watching Chelsea...

My Top 10 Most Addicted playlist
1. Optimist Or Pessimist - Nevermore
2. In Memory - Nevermore
3. The Heart Collector - Nevermore
4. Belive In Nothing - Nevermore
5. Inside Four Walls - Nevermore
6. The Enchanted Towers - Blitzkrieg
7. Dark City - Blitzkrieg
8. Tornado Of Souls - Megadeth
9. One - Metallica
10. The Day That Never Come - Metallica

5 Persons I Wish To tag
And The Victims Is.....
1. Kelip2 Dyla - "Catatan Aku Untuk Korang"
2. Princess Dyana - "Princess Diary"
3. Nad - "This Is What I Call Sweet"
4. Nazihah - "Doriyuckey"
5. Anyone That Feel To Do This Tag..Feel Free To Feel It...God Bless...

Tuesday, 5 May 2009

Perkahwinan..Perjalanan..Melancong..1001 Kenangan..Terbaik..






30 April..Sekumpulan Sahabat Dari Kejiranan Desa Seri Jenaris Seramai 8 Orang Telah Mengikuti Satu Rombongan Ke Kota Bharu, Kelantan..Bertujuan Menghantar Seorang Sahabat Dari Kejiranan Yang Sama Bertandang Kesana Buat Mengambil Sang Permaisuri Beliau..Yang Sekian Lama Dinanti Dan Diidamkan..Tahniah Hai Sahabat Ku..Kami Mengikuti Rombongan Keluarga Juga Saudara Mara Beliau..

1 Mei..Tibanya Kami Disana..Menempah Dan Mendiami HomeStay Di Persekitaran Kota Bharu Yang Terletak Diantara Panji Dan Pengkalan Chepa..Kepenatan Memang Tidak Terkata..Sesampai Sahaja..Agenda Pertama Ialah Berehat Dan Kemudian Disusuli Dengan Tidur Yang Tahap..Macam Biasa Bangun Semestinya Lewat..Majlis Pernikahan Bakal Berlangsung Jam 3 Petang..Jam Sudah 230 Petang..Jangan Katakan Kami..Bakal Pengantin Pun Belum Bersiap Lagi..Suasana Yang Separa Kelam Kabut Ditambah Dengan Kepanasan Membuatkan Sesiapa Pun Rasa Nak Berendam..Namun Itu Semua Hanya Lah Sementara..Maka..Selamatlah Kawan Kami Itu Menikahi Sang Permaisuri Hatinya...

2 Mei..Hari Persandingan..Suasana Yang Meriah Hanya Dengan Kehadiran 8 Orang Sahabat Pengantin Lelaki Sahaja..Sudah Cukup Untuk Menggamatkan Majlis Yang Dihadiri Kira2 400 Jemputan Itu..Gurau Senda..Hilai Tawa..Kami Menakluk Majlis Itu...Seolah Olah Majlis Itu Kami Yang Punya..Hahahaha..Makan?Memang Terbaik..Dengan Muka Yang Bersahaja Tanpa Memikirkan Malu Adab Dan Adat..Semua Kami Langgar Sahaja..Demi Sesuap Nasi..Hahaha..

3 Mei..Pagi Ini Kami Akan Pulang..Namun Pulang Dengan Hajat Melancong Dan Melencong Dahulu..Tempat Yang Ditakluki Kami..Pengkalan Kubor..Pasar Payang, Kuala Terengganu..Ajil...Kuantan..Dan Temerloh..Seterusnya Ialah Kampung Halaman..Betapa Indahnya Kampung Sendiri..Walau Secantik Mana Pun Kampung Orang..

4 Mei..Tiba Di Kajang..Jam 3 Pagi..Kira 4 Mei La Tu Kan?Hmmm2...4 Hari 5 Malam Lah Kira Nya..Termasuk Sekali Perjalanan Pergi Dan Balik..Kenangan?Memang Banyak..Kalau Nak Cerita..4 Hari Baru Habis..Tak Larat Nak Cerita Semua..Maka Ringkasan Agenda Sudah Memadai..Kenangan Memang Terbaik..Tidak Akan Dilupakan..Yang Manis Yang Pahit Yang Duka Yang Suka Yang Lucah Yang Gelisah Yang Kelakar..Semuanya Ada.....

Shamsul Afiq Sani...Selamat Pengantin Baru...Moga Tidak Melupakan Kami Sebagai Sahabat Anda Walaupun Sudah Bergelar Seorang Suami..

Time...

Time...Time Will Never Stop Leaving Us Behind..It's Up To Us To Choose..To Keep Up With It Or Be Leave All The Way Behind..Time Will Never Ever Stop For Sure..As The Time Moves So Does The Life..The Living We Live..The World We See And Know..What Will Happen Next?This Timeless Boundaries Make Us Live In Such A Hurry..People Don't Think Of Others Now..They Rather Think On Theirself Most Of The Time..Never Ever Even Try To Just Ask People Around Them...Sometimes..Someone They Know All Well..Even Worst Someone Whom Their Loved One...

That Is What Time Can Do To Our Life..If We Didn't Take It For Granted..May We Search The Time Of Our Life..As It Would Never Stop To Wait For Us To Catch It Back..Insya Allah.....

Saturday, 25 April 2009

Internal Security Act...ISA...Release Them..!

Inside Four Walls I Live My Life, Doesn't Matter What I've Done..
The Government's Always Right..?
They Tell Us What To Be, They Tell Us What To Believe..
They're Wrong..!My Friend Is Gone..!

Inside Four Walls..
Inside Four Walls..
The Day They Took Away My Friend..

Injustice Made It's Mark..
All The Political Whores Only Come Out After Dark..
If Anyone Knows The Way..
Build Me A Bridge So I Won't Fall Astray..

Inside Four Walls, Inside Four Walls My Friend..
They Took Away Your Freedom..
And The Pigs Still Preach Their Lies..!

The System Falls Apart..
The Pigs Still Laugh Feeding Off Our Broken Lifes..
Can Anyone Tell Me Why..?
Some Violent Criminals Do Far Less Time..?

Inside Four Walls, Inside Four Walls My Friend..
They Took Away Your Freedom..
And The Pigs Still Preach Their Lies..
They Took Away You Fear..?No..
They Took Away Your Freedom..

But They'll Never Take Your Mind...

I Believe In..Nothing?


Hello Darkness, My Old Friend..
I've Come To Talk With You again..
Because A Vision Softly Creeping..
Left Its Seeds While I Was Sleeping..
And The Vision That Was Planted In My Brain..
Still Remains Within The Sound Of Silence..


Into A Strange New World, Into The After..
All Your Tears Might Find You've Fallen Too Far..
Take Another Look, Take Another Ride..
Can't We Make Them Leave The Hate Behind..?

And I Still Believe In Nothing..
Will We Ever See The Shape Of Tomorrow..?
Into The Empty Storm, Into The Formless Loss Of Hope..
Where We Can Forget The Game..
And I Still Believe In Nothing..
Will We Ever See The Cure For Our Sorrow..?

Nothing Is Sacred When No One Is Saved..
Nothing's Forever So Count Your Days..
Nothing Is Final And No One Is Real..
Pray For Tomorrow And Find Your Empty Still..

Nothing..?

Allah Dan Sifatnya..Allah Dan Hak Nya..

Recently Aku Terbaca Satu Bulettin Yang Bagi Aku Amat Menarik..Kelihatan Seperti Ada Seperkara Yang Kita Semua Tidak Faham Akan Maha Berkuasa..Agung Dan Sempurnanya Allah Itu..Apakah Butiran2 Bulettin Itu?Sama2 Kita Hayatinya..

"Allah Mempunyai Sifat Positif Yang Saturated..Apa Maknanya?Allah MAHA SEMPURNA... Campaklah KepadaNya Apa Jua Perkara Buruk Atau Jahat, Allah Tetap Akan Sempurna... Jelasnya Begini..Jika Kita Melakukan Kebaikan Pada Seseorang, Sudah Pasti Orang Itu Akan Suka Pada Kita..Jika Ibu Bapa, Mereka Akan Sayang Kita..Jika Suami Atau Isteri Juga Begitu.. Pada Kawan-Kawan Pun Sama..Tetapi Jika Kita Mengata, Mengutuk, Marah, Maki, Caci Dan Sebagainya..Orang Yang Sayang Kepada Kita Akan Berubah..Dari Suka Kepada Benci Atau Sekurang-Kurangnya Tidak suka..Tetapi Allah Tidak Begitu..Jika Kita Tidak Mengikut PerintahNya, Jika Kita Mempersoalkan Apa Yang Allah Takdirkan Dan Sebagainya, Tidak Sedikit Pun Kurangnya Rasa Kasih Sayang Allah Pada Kita..Allah Tetap Memberi Rezeki Kepada Kita..Tetap Mengurniakan Pelbagai Nikmat Seperti Diizinkan Untuk Terus Bernafas, Makan Minum Dan Seumpamanya.Begitulah Positifnya Allah SWT.. Jika Kita Campakkan Negatif Pada Allah, Allah Tetap Terus Positif..Allah Adalah Pencipta Kita. Segala Apa Yang Ada Di Langit Dan Di Bumi Dan Di Antaranya Adalah Milik Allah..Namun Pernahkah Kita Meminta Izin Pada Allah Untuk Menggunakan Sesuatu Milik Allah..Walaupun Pada Fizikalnya Adalah Milik Kita Seperti Rumah, Kereta Malah Anak-anak Dan Isteri..Tetapi Pada Hakikatnya Semua Itu Milik Allah Yang Dipinjamkan Kepada Kita..Pernahkah Kita Meminta Izin Untuk Meminjam Semua Itu Dari Allah?

Ceritanya Begini..Pernah Seorang Lelaki Mempunyai Jiwa Super Didatangi Sahabat Yang Kuat Minum Arak..Kawan Yang Ketagih Arak Ini Langsung Tidak Ingin Berubah..Amat Sukar Jika Sudah Ketagih Arak..Lelaki Jiwa Super Cuba Untuk Merubahnya..“Kamu Minta Izin Pada Allah Sebelum Minum Arak”, Kata Lelaki Jiwa Super..Sahabatnya Terkejut Kerana Kenapa Dia Perlu Minta Izin Pada Allah Sedangkan Dia Ingin Minum Arak..Tetapi Akur Untuk Mencubanya..Sejak Hari Itu, Sahabat Itu Sentiasa Meminta Izin Pada Allah Setiap Kali Minum Arak..“Ya Allah, Aku Meminta IzinMu Untuk Minum Arak Ini”, Lalu Sahabat Itu Meminum Arak..Setiap Masa Apabila Minum Arak, Pasti Keizinan Dari Allah Dimintanya..Sebulan Berlalu.. Sahabat Berjumpa Semula Dengan Lelaki Jiwa Super..Sahabat Berkata..“Saya Sudah Berubah..Tidak Lagi Minum Arak..Alhamdulillah..Saya Ingin Bertanya. Bagaimana Semua Ini Boleh Berlaku? Saya Minta Izin Daripada Allah Untuk Melakukan Perkara Tidak Baik, Namun Allah Beri Pada Saya Kekuatan Dan Menghilangkan Ketagih Saya Minum Arak”, Sahabat Ingin Tahu..“Allah Itu Maha Positif..Campaklah Apa Pun Perkara Sama Ada Positif Atau Negatif Pada Allah, Namun Allah Tetap Positif..Tetap Sayangkan HambaNya..Dia Tahu Perkara Yang Baik Dan Niat Yang Baik Dalam Diri Hamba2 Nya..Kerana Itu Dia Bukakan Hati Kamu Dan Menolong Kamu Untuk Mencapai Hajat Kamu Untuk Tidak Lagi Mahu Minum Arak”, Lelaki Jiwa Super Menjawab..Untuk Permulaan Ini, Marilah Kita Minta Izin Pada Allah Untuk Lewat Mengerjakan Solat 5 Waktu..Bukankah Ini Sering Kita Lakukan? Solat Dihujung Waktu..Kita Minta Izin Kepada Allah Begini…“Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku..Aku Mohon Nak Siapkan Kerja Ni Dulu Sebelum Solat..Lepas Siap Kerja Ini, Aku Akan Solat..Benarkanlah Aku Untuk Solat Lambat Aa Allah”
Atau “Ya Allah, Aku Nak Tengok TV Dulu Ya Allah..Lepas Ni Baru Aku Solat..Seronok Cerita Ni Ya Allah..Kalau Aku Solat, Nanti Terlepas Pula Ya Allah”..InsyaAllah, Lama-Kelamaan, Jika Diamalkan Anda Pasti Akan Lihat Perubahan Yang Besar..Allah Akan Masukkan Satu Perasaan Yang Membuatkan Kita Rasa Sentiasa Ingin Solat Tepat Pada Waktunya..Semoga Memiliki Jiwa Super.Amin~...."

Tengoklah Kawan2..Akan Apa Yang Anda Telah Baca Ini..Menarik Kan?Tapi Jangan Lah Pula Di Ambil Kesempatan Akan Perkara Ini Untuk Membuat Jahat Tanpa Rasa Bersalah Seolah Olah Allah Telah Mengizinkan Kita Pula Untuk Berbuat Jahat Setelah Di Minta Izin..Di Mana Ada Kemahuan Disitu Ada Jalan..Apa Sahaja Yang Kita Mahu, Insya Allah Akan Diberi Pertolongan Walaupun Baik Atau Jahat Perkara Itu..Tetapi Ingat Lah Yang Setiap Perbuatan Pasti Ada Balasan..Juga Nya..Baik Atau Jahat Balasan Itu..Bergantung Pada Allah..Dia Berhak Untuk Menghukum Kita Sesuka Hati Nya..Tanpa Mengira Siapa..Tanpa Mengira Kuat Ke Iman Kita Atau Tidak..Kalau Allah Mahu..Dia Berhak..Setiap Inci Diri Kita..Setiap Sudut Hidup Kita Adalah Milik Allah..